Why do some people feel the need to review past events?
I don’t know the answer to that question – so I will use this platform to explore why I feel a need to review the last year…
This isn’t going to be a chronological listing of events – this won’t be a rehash of my FB posts or favorite Tweets.
I do not want to talk about my feelings towards world events – I think we have all experienced enough of that.
I do want to share a significant event from my 2016 that I feel exemplifies the journey we all face as humans.
My life’s journey has been colored by a syndrome some of us may experience once, twice or thirty times in our lives – the Grass is Greener Syndrome.
You know what I’m talking about…
It may be the there-must-be-a-better-place-to-live-than-here syndrome.
It may be the there-must-be-a-better-job-than-this-job syndrome.
It may be the there-must-be-a-better-partner-than-this-partner syndrome.
And so on and so on – you get the picture.
I personally think this type of questioning is positive. It allows us the opportunity to reevaluate our lives to figure out what needs changing or what needs a little readjusting. I wrote a post in July that describes how I feel restless when the need for change arises…
This syndrome may be manifested by that nagging voice in your head or on your shoulder that sometimes is so loud you can’t think straight.
I have realized this voice is a reflection of a part of me that isn’t satisfied.
In 2016 an event helped me let go of those nagging voices.
Helped me brush them off…
For years, I wondered what it would be like to live in Hawaii. For years, I have thought Seattle is not my home. For years, I thought there must be a better job.
My restlessness was quieted by an opportunity to work for my employer on a 3-month project in Oahu.
I lived and worked in what many believe is paradise for 90-days.
I not only had the amazing opportunity to live in a place I have dreamed about since I fell in love with Magnum P.I. in the 80s but work in a different part of my organization. I got to see how green the grass was on the other side.
I fell in love with the Ko’olau mountains. My favorite drive was from Kaneohe, on the windward side, north to Kahuku along the Kamehameha highway. My favorite little grocery store Ching’s in Punaluu, was on the way, where they have the best butter mochi and spam musubi on the island. The best curry is at Fiji market in Kahuku.
But that’s not all.
In March of 2016, I found out I got accepted to an MFA in creative writing program. It was the next step in my lifelong journey of becoming a writer. So while in Hawaii, I not only worked full-time at my job, I had a full course load of homework assignments to do. All this while on an island my brain considered as a vacation spot.
It was hard.
After two months, I missed the Pacific NW, my cats, my fiancé, my house, and all things familiar.
I got island fever. But, being isolated, or sequestered, on a rock in the middle of the planet’s largest ocean gave me time to reevaluate and refocus on those things that are important to me. I no longer have that nagging voice telling me life is better somewhere else. Life happens wherever you go.
I realized rainbows are created at the interface of sun and rain – you need to walk through a storm to get to the rainbow.
I have quieted my Grass-is-Greener voice – for now.
I’m still open to opportunity and change.
In the words of the poor man in the Holy Grail – I’m not dead yet!
I am thankful to work for an organization that created a program where employees can apply for opportunities to work in other parts of the organization to gain skills and work in different cultural landscapes. My organization not only has an amazing mission but truly respects and appreciates its hardworking employees. If you want to check out a little more about what I do for work – see my LinkedIn page.